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Tue Jan 04 05 / 10:01 AM He and Suguru have arrived in Japan and I am so happy for the company and the fact that I am now forced to travel and see the country. But I am also cranky to not be alone and do things exactly as I want to. I am so settled here, and I feel a veneer of happiness in being so, but having him and Suguru here reminds me that I am completely empty of purpose as soon as I go home, and even while I stay here. Why do I not know what I want? Why do I not want what I have? Why do I not try to get what I need? No purpose, no purpose, no purpose. And I am upset that at a rave Tanya can do what she wants but I am unattractive, shy, and boyfriended. |
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