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latest archive about email links yearbook japan photoblog wish list	Mon May 17 04 / 3:45 PM It's one thing to crave conversations, to sit at a computer late at night and wonder what will happen if I type certain words into the message window, to enjoy being high because of what it makes me say; and it's another thing entirely to hear those thoughts reciprocated by the person sitting next to you. Even though it was the alcohol talking, and the summer air, and the good music, and the confidence of being pleased with how you look, Tanya said that she wanted to kiss me, and I said that I wanted that too. Maybe it will happen someday, and maybe it won't. Maybe the excitement of talking about it is all I need right now, and maybe it's wrong to talk about it sober. I seem to live in two spheres: the one that talks about these things that you don't talk about normally, and the one that looks forward to talking about them. One is exciting and upbeat and daring and often drunk, the other is my real life. It's not that I want to have two seperate existences, it's that you can't experience being high if you don't live the lows.
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Lisa Higgs
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