reflections on birthdays
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Tue Nov 05 02 / 11:35 PM

Holy fucking November already. It feels like I'm living years at a time. I see Christmas commercials on TV and I think, Wasn't it just last Christmas? And then, Wasn't it just summer? Wasn't it just winter? Wasn't it just three years ago? The entire year is happening all at once, compressing into a smaller and smaller amount of time with each passing birthday. I'm going to age ten years in a minute, any second now.

I sometimes feel like I could literally explode and that would be the end of life - explode into a cloud of vomit and stardust as the thought of being nothing or anything becomes reality. This is what it is to be 23.



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Lisa Higgs
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