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Sun Feb 24 02 / 10:32 PM

I have a great mind for facts, but memory is so tricky - it is only masquerading as fact.

I am the sum of all my experiences, my memories, and I think that every second I live each one of them. Life exists only in the space between instants, and then it is gone again as if it never was. Blink - I come to existence and live all 22 years. Blink - there is nothing. Blink - I come to existence and live 22 years and 1 second.

Each second I am the immediate conscious sum of all I've done. But there is less than a second in the time it takes to forget something. Even now I forget whole years, I retain only minutes out of entire months - only enough to mark a passage of time.

The outlines seem to be there, defined ends of gray middles. I suppose with enough concentration it might become clear again, but huge parts of my life have become unconscious, bearing nothing in this second of existence.

There is a feeling of vague uneasiness that accompanies memory loss, as one wonders what one may have done.

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Lisa Higgs

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latest archive about email links yearbook japan photoblog wish list	Sun Feb 24 02 / 10:32 PM I have a great mind for facts, but memory is so tricky - it is only masquerading as fact. I am the sum of all my experiences, my memories, and I think that every second I live each one of them. Life exists only in the space between instants, and then it is gone again as if it never was. Blink - I come to existence and live all 22 years. Blink - there is nothing. Blink - I come to existence and live 22 years and 1 second. Each second I am the immediate conscious sum of all I've done. But there is less than a second in the time it takes to forget something. Even now I forget whole years, I retain only minutes out of entire months - only enough to mark a passage of time. The outlines seem to be there, defined ends of gray middles. I suppose with enough concentration it might become clear again, but huge parts of my life have become unconscious, bearing nothing in this second of existence. There is a feeling of vague uneasiness that accompanies memory loss, as one wonders what one may have done.
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Lisa Higgs
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