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latest archive about email links yearbook japan photoblog wish list	Mon Jun 25 01 / 7:14 AM The thing about leaving is that every normal thing you do becomes a lot more meaningful, simply because it is for the last time. And when you're talking about being away for six months, the last time seems like it will have to last forever. I wanted it to be perfect, and it was close enough. Last week I had a goodbye dinner with my relatives, the first time I think that we had one of these dinners just for me. I had some drinks, finally noticing that everybody drinks at every dinner; finally feeling like a family member instead of just family. Last night I had my last night at Barrymore's, and it was great. I started out wanting to cry out of rejection when Mike said he wasn't going, but ended up wanting to cry for joy because my friends are the best people ever. When all I could think about was those that weren't coming, I questioned my value as a friend. But when I saw all those that did come, I realized the value of their friendship. And god, am I ever sorry for ever taking anyone for granted. So now I have one more week of only days left. Soon I know I will wish that six months was really forever, but right now that seems way too long. I am going to miss everything.
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