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Sun May 27 01 / 7:07 AM

I think that everything is still the same with him, but I'm worried. There's nothing I can do about being with him right now except remember the way it was. And I don't mind the way things are now if I know they will change in the future. He who has a why can withstand almost any how.

But memory is tricky. It is triggered by sight and sound and smell: those very things that are entirely what I wish to remember about him. I know the same things about our relationship, but I don't feel them. What I feel instead is longing.

I had one of my stupidly weird dreams last night about him, but I didn't like it. It wasn't really him. His face, his clothes, his expression, were all from the photograph on my desk.

I miss the real. But is now the dream, or was then?

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Lisa Higgs

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*memento mori*
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latest archive about email links yearbook japan photoblog wish list	Sun May 27 01 / 7:07 AM I think that everything is still the same with him, but I'm worried. There's nothing I can do about being with him right now except remember the way it was. And I don't mind the way things are now if I know they will change in the future. He who has a why can withstand almost any how. But memory is tricky. It is triggered by sight and sound and smell: those very things that are entirely what I wish to remember about him. I know the same things about our relationship, but I don't feel them. What I feel instead is longing. I had one of my stupidly weird dreams last night about him, but I didn't like it. It wasn't really him. His face, his clothes, his expression, were all from the photograph on my desk. I miss the real. But is now the dream, or was then?
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Lisa Higgs
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