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latest archive about email links yearbook japan photoblog wish list	Sun Jan 07 01 / 5:27 AM More evidence? I almost had, for lack of a few details, the most perfect time of my life in today's wee hours. Forgotten responsibility, dissolved worry, no past just future all promise. A boy, a bed, a belly, this time with feeling. What I thought of yesterday happened today. He picked me up after work. We dallied languidly with his friends and I saw - for the first time - that maybe he didn't fit into the universe as well as I'd assumed; that maybe he too might wish to be someone else sometimes. Back home (home) he unquestioningly helped me take down my Christmas tree. After, as he made the motions to leave, he changed his mind and zoned in on my bed. Not caring what I did, he just wanted to be near. And that was the thing. We lay beside each other, but no forced cuddling. We talked personally, but no hidden agendas. "I don't want to scare you - or me - away. It's not about the l-word, or maybe it is. But you're what I need right now." He said. What an unfortunate clause to add at the end, but is it not really just a crystal echo of my own sentiments?
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