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latest archive about email links yearbook japan photoblog wish list	Sat Apr 01 00 / 10:29 PM I went to the movies with Ryan. Going to the theatre is such a safe date - even the idle chatter before the film starts can be mercifully supplied by the on-screen trivia. I think Ryan and I are very much alike. We are big talkers on-line, but mumblers in real life. We say a lot, but much of it goes unheard or unimportant. We have faith in the system because we think we are its best products; progeny that runs the family business to new levels. Maybe tradition will eventually knock us flat. I always think I could be attracted to Ryan, but I'm not. This is probably because he is not attracted to me. I am a praise-seeker, and though I love his strange and quiet company, he will never stock my ego. This may be the limitation of a cyber friendship: despite the years, we don't have the familiarity to banter, wrestle, or trade superfluous compliments for cheer. In this way, I can never really know him. Maybe that will change this summer. I know that I need more friends, I need to deepen the relationships I hold, and it is soon the season for all new projects to bear fruit.
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Lisa Higgs
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